Post by ~Derpy Anna~ on Dec 23, 2015 7:08:47 GMT
Ok first off I know other people have it worse then I do but I need to vent so badly, and this is my goodbye for now. Caution I swear a lot....and sound like a whiny teenager
I will be gone for quite awhile because my dick of an Ex decided to show up at my house today and demanded why I stopped talking to him and asked why I broke up with him for the hundredth time, Oh hmmmmm yes MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU WHISPERED UNDER YOU'RE GOD-DAMN FUCKING BREATH THAT ONE OF MY FRIENDS SHOULD KILL THEMSELVES WHEN THEY ALREADY TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE FOUR YEARS AGO!! Or Because you disrespect me every single time you came over when I was TRYING to be civil about it, Or I'm trying to moving on the best I can and the ONLY way to get you to leave is having a breakdown, Which I had a massive one today that I got a headache because of it and cried for a good two hours. Oh and after the fact my own flesh and blood MOTHER told me I should stop acting that way and stop having breakdowns, and after talking to my Ex my mom told me that he said he couldn't live without me and wants to help him, and suggested I stay at my boyfriend for the holidays while they get my Ex some help.......Really? I had a fucking BREAKDOWN and you told me I SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD ONE! And worse you're saying HE needs help and not ME? I hate my mom I really fucking do!!! What do I do to get help too? maybe I'll start cutting because your to fucking blind to see my emotional pain!! Everything is my fucking fault!!!!!!! You feeling bad? My Fault! A family member of yours died? My Fault!! You got bad grades the semester? My Fault!!! You broke up with Girlfriend/Boyfriend My Fault!!!! You're car won't start?? My Fault!!!!! You had a breakdown?? MY. FUCKING. FAULT!!!!!!!!
TLDR/Dramaish free; I'm leaving until Sunday and I'm staying at my boyfriends house for Christmas and having suicidal thoughts because my mom wants to help my Ex instead of me. :') Oh how I fucking love life!!!
Keeping UTAUing....and Happy Holidays. I'm sorry my closest friends. </3
-Anna the Shittest Admin Ever
P.S And Shirahime you can stop drawing Annaloid Power for awhile because I'm hating myself so much I can't focus on the drawings, but I'm going to download UTAU on my boyfriend's computer and make a cover though.... so I don't feel like I ripped you off :/ and you get another 10,000 Notes from me, when I get better I'll draw ALL you're current UTAUs because I feel so bad. Feel free to rip the admin title from me I don't deserve it. And GothAmaterasu I was drawing a picture of Irene for you're birthday but that's gonna have to wait until later I'm sorry.
I will be gone for quite awhile because my dick of an Ex decided to show up at my house today and demanded why I stopped talking to him and asked why I broke up with him for the hundredth time, Oh hmmmmm yes MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU WHISPERED UNDER YOU'RE GOD-DAMN FUCKING BREATH THAT ONE OF MY FRIENDS SHOULD KILL THEMSELVES WHEN THEY ALREADY TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE FOUR YEARS AGO!! Or Because you disrespect me every single time you came over when I was TRYING to be civil about it, Or I'm trying to moving on the best I can and the ONLY way to get you to leave is having a breakdown, Which I had a massive one today that I got a headache because of it and cried for a good two hours. Oh and after the fact my own flesh and blood MOTHER told me I should stop acting that way and stop having breakdowns, and after talking to my Ex my mom told me that he said he couldn't live without me and wants to help him, and suggested I stay at my boyfriend for the holidays while they get my Ex some help.......Really? I had a fucking BREAKDOWN and you told me I SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD ONE! And worse you're saying HE needs help and not ME? I hate my mom I really fucking do!!! What do I do to get help too? maybe I'll start cutting because your to fucking blind to see my emotional pain!! Everything is my fucking fault!!!!!!! You feeling bad? My Fault! A family member of yours died? My Fault!! You got bad grades the semester? My Fault!!! You broke up with Girlfriend/Boyfriend My Fault!!!! You're car won't start?? My Fault!!!!! You had a breakdown?? MY. FUCKING. FAULT!!!!!!!!
TLDR/Dramaish free; I'm leaving until Sunday and I'm staying at my boyfriends house for Christmas and having suicidal thoughts because my mom wants to help my Ex instead of me. :') Oh how I fucking love life!!!
Keeping UTAUing....and Happy Holidays. I'm sorry my closest friends. </3
-Anna the Shittest Admin Ever
P.S And Shirahime you can stop drawing Annaloid Power for awhile because I'm hating myself so much I can't focus on the drawings, but I'm going to download UTAU on my boyfriend's computer and make a cover though.... so I don't feel like I ripped you off :/ and you get another 10,000 Notes from me, when I get better I'll draw ALL you're current UTAUs because I feel so bad. Feel free to rip the admin title from me I don't deserve it. And GothAmaterasu I was drawing a picture of Irene for you're birthday but that's gonna have to wait until later I'm sorry.
